ttc update time….
okay so hubby got his test done. He is above normal! Isn’t that great. So now this is totally 100% my fault. Part of me is glad because I knew that I was part of the problem but now that I am the only problem it makes it a little easier to fix hopefully! So it looks like provera is working….. it really sucks but its working. So this week I have been totally sick. I have had a very nauseous stomach a few really bad headaches and here’s the best part…. dizziness! This sucks but if it gets us a baby then it will all be worth it. I am having a hsg test next Tuesday. i am a little nervous about that, but my big sis said that it isn’t terrible. and her and my mom are taking me so it will kinda be a girls day out. if that’s possible. maybe we will have fun. And hopefully this will give us the fertility boost we need! I am praying everyday that this works. This is the month. And this is the first month that i have other people praying to. Which makes me feel so much better. I am at a greater peace this month with this situation than i have been since we started. I really think it has to do with finally getting it out there. and knowing that now our family and friends are praying for us.
Today I found out that my best friend Nicole’s daughter S has a friend who just turned 14 and is pregnant…. this is so hard for me to deal with! its hard for me when its an adult woman, just about anyone I see or hear about that is pregnant or just had a baby makes me angry and sad at the same time. Its so hard to deal with sometimes. I will see someone in town and notice her belly and then I will find myself putting my had on my stomach. It makes me so sad and I feel so empty inside. Sooner or later it will be my turn it has to! I need it more than I could have ever imagined. Keep us in your prayers…. thanks.
